Tuesday, October 20, 2009

2nd post

just over 1 year and 11 months I posted a story about my first speeding ticket... well a similar situation went down this afternoon just lamer... UGHHH wtf, when I think about it I'm "grateful" I didn't get some bad ticket like hardcore speeding (which I do) but getting a ticket for some pathetic reason like crossing the solid line while merging onto the freeway cause there's a slow truck in front of you... FUCK you mr "copper" I mean yeah your doing your job but serious how lame is that... UGH like I said. I'm gonna stop thinking about it now.

I was gonna post my thoughts on the suicide issue because I realize whatever it is I put up last night wasn't very obvious... so that will wait, I'm going to sleep.

Sunday, October 11, 2009


so beside the point of me going to church I thought it would be fun for people to make up a caption for this picture (this is a real picture from today...)

Tuesday, October 6, 2009


I do things in the very spur of the moment so today when I read this
http://www.dailyutahchronicle.com/news/student-remembered-as-passionate-hard-working-1.1940500 I wanted to email the friend and ask her what the untold story was??? so I found her on facebook and I wrote this email... but I need to go through it before I send it to make sure my point is clear and that I'm not being a complete jerk... so yeah tell me what you think...

to start, I am so sorry about the loss of your friend.

I am curious though about somethings, I really don't know how to bring this up but I guess the reasons don't matter it's the fact that 2 people thought that suicide was the answer.

there has to be a reason behind it and I guess that is what bothers me. I think it should be brought to the open (I am not the one to do it nor would I even consider it). there is more to it then the quote from his dad implying that it was school.

so again I really don't know why I am writing to you, I guess I just want to know why you think he did it... since I am a complete stranger you can be honest with me for my sake or you can ignore this email altogether.

I guess the way I look at it is, suicide is the ultimate voluntary (to a degree) way to give up and move on. so it is a decision (to a degree) that the person made. to avoid others from doing the same thing you should confront the issue publicly even if it is hard... I say this because a relatively close friend of mine killed himself because he was gay. I knew this and I know his family knew this but for everyone else it was left to he struggled with depression and couldn't overcome it. So it is a disservice to all those who have the problem because they continue to suffer in silence.

It seems this could be the case because his friend killed himself 8 months ago and now here we are today. and so the world can learn from this even if it is one person, but either way I will move on and only remember this when I hear a story of someone who gave up.