Friday, April 30, 2010

FUCK YOU SOCIETY

right on, so this is totally an angry rant but it is what it is... it's kinda ironic cause a comment on my last post from a Julie said I didn't need "wishes" cause I sounded "together" well this will prove that wrong but overall I think I'm pretty normal I just let everything build up and then I blow it off by bitching... so anyway my beef for the day is relationships...I've been kinda talking to this guy for 5 months now... we've never met though cause of a lot of things but all that is beside the point... IS THERE ANY NORMAL PERSON OUT THERE? I mean I know I'm not normal but WTF... or I guess if I was wishing something with a magic ginny I'd say how do I find a halfway normal person that I could spend the rest of my life with... and I might add happily in there too... anyway in other news my dad wrote me back but I haven't read it, I don't want to deal with that bull shit at the moment (I let a friend read it so I've indirectly dealt with it) so yeah all I know is that my gay world and my life is only a matter of time before they are the same. Yes I basically mean I'm gonna be doing the coming out on facebook soon and probably come out on here as my real self (even though a lot of you know who I am) but yeah something has got to change so I'm tired of everything and yeah starting with the obvious... anyway sorry for the bad grammer I'm in a rush and I had to get this out so thanks for listening / reading...

11 comments:

playasinmar said...

Ha!

Funny rage is funny.

El Genio said...

There are normal guys out there, but by the time you try and factor in attraction and compatibility it can seem like they are pretty rare. Wish I had one myself.

Congratulations on getting ready to come out. I did it on facebook 6 months ago and was surprised by how many supportive reactions I got. Of course, not everyone was great about it - but they were by far the minority. I was just thinking about that night earlier today. The experience was so nerve wracking that I had to go outside (at 2 am) and walk around just to calm down. Anyway, hang in there - it gets better.

Reina said...

I know that digital hugs suck.... but none the less (((hugs))). I am sorry that things are so stressful right now.

BTW - I love that you used the word "fuck". It sounds crazy, but sometimes swearing is a great stress reliever.

I have had similar thoughts. I have a lot of family members on FB that I have not actually seen for about two years... I have joined all of the organizations on FB that you can like Pride Utah, Utah Equality, HRC, etc, but then I went through and filtered what my family members could see... I get tired of leading a double life and more and more I feel like I don't have to...

Keaton said...

Canyon...still don't know why your so angry. I missed something?

Bravone said...

You need to get out of Dodge and take a road trip to Idaho, where the air is clear. Love you man.

playasinmar said...

No way should you ever go to Idaho.

What exceptionally poor advice, Bravone.

Maybe he should visit Iraq next?

Get thee to a gay-friendly resort, STAT!

Cadence said...

hahaha one of Idaho's senators is gay isn't he... ;)
and I'll actually be going to my brothers sometime after next weekend... as for everyone else thanks for the positive vibes and such...

Keaton said...

Well Canyon/Cadence/Bohemian....

Like you i'm not big on civilization right now. Unlike you ...my anger is gone. I've reached a resolute stasis
and no longer have the will to rant. I see the Industrial complex in complete control and culture as I once knew it as depraved. (Not to say that I am not a little). I'm a wondering archaeologist, who digs, earns a little cash and heads for the hills is search of Mr. Ruess with Mowatt and Hayduke in my backpocket. I do on the side advocate for Mormon kids lost in the SSA void. I lost a close friend. Needless to say these kids need some commonground. Keep in touch.

Keat

Gay Mormon said...

Did we have a bad day? As for there being no normal guys out there? I resemble that remark! I know it sounds cliche but often when you least expect it, bam there he is. . . I know it may not help but for now enjoy your life and have fun along the way bro. You are about to have another fantastic adventure, to hell with those who don't "get it".

Близнецы said...

No there are no normal people out there.

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